Human thinking could be so complicated that you did not even know the decision of the last minute would void in the next second. Reading her blog, I realized she was happy, and for some unspeakable, deeply hidden reason, she rejected the rose and the love. Happily she would say I do not want to interfere each other’s life, but words hurt.
Though I am not feeling love is like the water spilled out, to certain degree, it has very passive effect one people’s life, well, it is the rejection of love.
Cheer up, we all know we are not alone in this world
When you are walking on a very slim road, and the dark way is just so broad beside you, what would you think? Once you step onto the dark road, you are falling down, stop!. You find it so hard to continue walking on the narrow path, why not grab a friend going towards the same destination? Though you might be bit slower than the guy in front (or you could lead), but the road is certainly wider.
I am quite upset and excited right now, as I am going to say “I love you” to the girl later at night. I doubt the result, though I believe heart-breaking maybe something healthy and falling in love is better.
When you are with the best friend you have, you know you will trust the person, even though things may go against what you think. People are unpredictable, and because of this unique characteristic, we are called Human, and I am learning as a human to trust people.
Is trust mutual? The answer may not be necessarily yes. You’ve got to trust someone first. When you are trusting someone, you are gaining her trust as well. Breaking promises, saying while lies will always put the trust in jeopardy, so do not ever do that. Learn to not possess, learn to set free. I believe my trust did not go wrong and I love to trust.
What does it take to understand someone, I think the answer is “your life time”. You are never able to understand a person completely, not even you are genius, because every creature on the earth is uniquely created by God. I had doubt on John’s words, simply because he says those without the understanding of people’s feelings. Words are like swording, cutting your heart open. I thank God his grace never cease flowing so that the wound is healed very fast, and I grow stronger as well.
I love struggling, but in the way it is now. I do not like being fooled by People of my emotions, because they are quite a large part of my life, I treasure them.
After today’s preach on the role of man, I was quite encouraged at the time. I want myself to be a caring person, learning to cherish, to communicate and to consult. These are the simple rules to make life happier, because they are set by God. The most interesting thing I have learned is that “to care”. When nobody says he would care, you need to take the initiative, saying “Let’s care about it!”
Shortly after that, we had a talk with one of the G12 leader. His words on marriage and girl friend penetrated into my heart, he tends to generalize the situation though most of us are not experiencing that. From the deepest from my heart, I know I will cling to God, Jesus Christ, but I can not prevent myself of practising these on people, and yes, she is a girl.
The girl on the left is Phoebe, studying life science in NUS. Though tough looking in this picture due to it was shot very early in the morning, she is kind and gentle, and quite good at organizing big events for hundreds over people.
The girl on the right-hand size is Mary, Chemistry Major. Perhaps her major bring her the chemistry she needs for ministering people. She is quite dominant and influencing as well. Archiving the goal shouldn’t be a big deal, but unless she wants to.
I had quite a bunch of work to rush off next week. When I finished arranging the time table, I myself was shocked. I found it is *fullly* packed. 24-hour battle is no fun. Having experienced such awful time, I won’t do it again. But how could I organize my time more efficiently? I do not want to give up my Monday into a school work day – it is on earth the Feb-14 valentine, and I do love the girl, I do want to spend some time of quality with her. Tuesday she is running the road relay, I want and need to go there as well, supporting and cheering for her. Wednesday I have homework of one subject due plus one interview for NUS overseas college. Thusday she is playing accordion. Friday another subject due…